I’m always broke but now I’m beginning to feel broken.
AT the same time as prices are hiked another household faces another week without gas or electricity.
I am still waiting for vouchers promised by British Gas for gas and electricity. When she spoke to British Gas on 19 September she was told that the technician installing a prepaid electric meter would bring vouchers for the warm home gas / electric. When none came she wrote to British Gas twice but received no response. On 11 November, freezing, not even 1p emergency gas left, £2.40 emergency electricity left and £2.68 in the bank.
What is she going to do – jobseekers money of £163 is only due on Monday and £150 of that must go towards our rent which is well in arrears.
My son has to come home today and I have not a scrap of food to give him, no hot water for a shower and no electricity to wash and iron clean clothing. What a terrible mother I am . I have never been so poor in my whole life and am at a point of wondering if everyone will be better off if I die. I have even contemplated doing a large robbery, even if I am caught, at least my kids will be warm and fed for a week or two.
I hate our government, always going on about how the lazy people on benefits are ripping off Britain. I wish one of them would walk in my shoes for a couple of weeks to learn what real hardship is. How humiliating it is to owe everyone, not be able to pay everyone, to not be able to feed and provide a warm secure home to your family. On top of that I am not well, I have narcolepsy and cataplexy and suffer seizures all through the day. Yes, I still look for work in spite of this. I have just been taken off my medication due to a terrible eruption of a skin rash which may be related to the medication. So now I am shaking and dizzy and I am not sure if the shaking is because I am freezing cold or because of the lack of medication.
British Gas will send letters to inform people who are eligible for the warm home discount Letters will be sent between end November and end March. So payment will be end March and earlier for the really vulnerable but not earlier than end November. When I stated my case to them, appealing to them for the vouchers promised, all they said was ‘you shouldn’t rely on the vouchers or warm home discount for your electric’ – when I said I would quote this, they hung up.
So now another freezing cold night to look forward to with no hot water, nothing to eat and no end to this hardship on the horizon.